If Only You Knew by Jayla S

Lying awake every night
Just wishing the pain would go away
-if only you knew.

Running back and forth through the good and bad
Until I've been shouted at
-if only you knew.

Crying every day about the thing
That obviously will never change.
-if only you knew.

Believing you would come back soon
And stop pretending to forget.
-if only you knew.

To go from never having a want
To always having to need.
-if only you knew.

Opening your eyes for the first time
Without a tear
-if only you knew.

Wishing the lies would come to an end
And the end become a beginning
-if only you knew.

How tired my heart is of trying
To love you
For what my mind was wanting you to be.
-if only you knew.

When I go to take my next step
And you're not there to guide me.
-if only you knew

I can care less about your attitude
And head for a full life.

Oh wait, that's right...
You didn't care enough to know.